the revival of thoughts...

...and the re-expression of words.

okay, so i havent posted anything here in over a year, but it doesn't mean i haven't been thinking and reflecting! this year has been particularly interesting; i tried journalling in written form, and then in typing, and well, each has its own benefits i suppose.

for some reason i've come back to blogging, but i suppose it is a way of journalling, just perhaps more public. but anyhow.

the cell went for fusion on saturday night, and halfway through, i found nic just sitting on one of the pews, not doing anything. he looked bored (i guess he usually does anyway) and he wasn't in a posture of worship, he was just sitting there. so i went up to him and asked if he was okay, and we ended up talking outside. he shared some of his questions with me and i suppose i have to say that those questions are similar to ones that i have had. i couldn't provide answers because i myself havent found my own, and i dont suppose i am obligated even to give answers, but he looked quite expectant, and well, i probably disappointed him. i'm glad he's questioning, but i wonder if his depth of thought is too deep for me to handle. i'm really not confident of being able to handle his questions, to provide him with satisfactory opinions and viewpoints. i suppose what si en said about iron sharpening iron is true. that while i may not be ready or even have the capacity to handle his questions, it's more important to just help him sharpen his thoughts and clarify his mind, and i suppose in the process i myself get sharpened as well.

my concern for him though is that he thinks and he questions, but he doesnt pursue any further. and if he's not in the mood then he won't feel like thinking at all. i guess he can be quite the emotional boy, and he has his moments of revelation and epiphany. perhaps i'm just thinking too much about it and reading into things too much. hmm.

so i shared some of the questions with sien and isaac, and well, just see how things go on wednesday when i meet him i guess. i'm really praying for an open heart for him to share, and wisdom and the correct words for me to say.

[edit] what is with this new blogger layout that does not recognise new paragraphs and you have to manually create your own breaks?![/edit]