PISS OFF.

bloody hell. gosh. im so pissed off. im trying too bloody hard. for what? i dont even know. this whole week has been pretty good until last night. karen kwan just had to bloody piss me off right. i mean, what the hell man. i dont think i can ever forgive her. i dont know. and i dont think mum would care if i died. i think no one would care if i died. no one would bother. no one would notice. i dont wanna go back to what i was last year. im sick and tired of it. im trying so hard to be accepted. but does anyone care? no. no ones there for me when im most stressed, when im most tired, when im at my worst. because no one bothers. no one gives a shit. cause no ones a true friend. they dont exist anymore. no, i should say they never existed. no ones there to cheer me up, to encourage me, to help me through. im just so tired of life. if i knew what was coming, i dont think i would have come out. no, i didnt want to come out. im a cesarean baby. they doctor should have realised that it was a mistake to bring me into this world. i was a mistake. i was an accident. i should never have been born should i? im just a jinx. the mask that i put on everyday. its going to wear off one day. and then id have to spend time making a new one or fixing it. i really thought that this year was gonna be much better. but apparently its not turning out to be any better.

im just so tired. i should never have existed. honestly. i dont make a difference to anyone. why did i come into this ugly, blemished world? ill only make it uglier, destroy it more and make it more blemished. i wish i could die.

no one realises what ive done for them. they aint grateful. and piss off joan. its not my fault you dont wanna tell me your bloody problems.

JUST SHUT UP AND GO TO HELL